With that goal in mind, I've been tweaking my food choices, cutting out processed foods, drinking nearly three liters of water most days, and trying to do cardio and/or strength training every day. But the hardest part for me is eating better and dealing with "my wills & my wont's." What are my "wills & my wont's"? Well, they're the things I will and won't eat. You see, I have a few food phobias which makes eating healthy challenging for me.
Ok, I admit it, I don't just have "a few," I have a LOT of wacky food issues. I am an extremely picky eater, have been all my life.
My parents' favorite story about me as a toddler was about trying to get me to eat mashed potatoes. They'd cram a spoonful in my mouth, and then close my mouth so I couldn't spit them out. But I repeatedly refused to swallow them. They even tried slipping me something to drink, thinking it would all wash down together. To their surprise, I would swallow the liquid, only to stick out my tongue and still have the potatoes sitting there.
As I got older, my parents realized trying to get me to eat what I didn't like was futile. But like many families, if I didn't eat what was served I didn't get anything else either. As a result, I often went hungry, but I didn't care. I learned to go without food with no problem. I simply wasn't going to eat what I didn't like, even if that meant not eating anything at all. And it's an ingrained habit I still struggle with to this day.

But it gets worse. I also won't eat leftovers, and I don't like food that has been prepared ahead, refrigerated or frozen, and then reheated. Unless it's meatloaf, chili, or McDonalds! But I won't eat cold foods that have gotten warm. Or hot foods that have gotten cold.
I'm a complete freak, I know. But wait, there's more……..

All of the above? Definitely "won'ts." But that's not all…….
I'm also extremely fussy about meat. Any meat (other than ground beef) has to be as "clean and stripped" as possible. I won't eat any meat that has a bone in it, like chicken wings, ribs, or pork chops. And fish? Well, fish is just slimy, stinky mush that makes me sick to my stomach. I also get especially nauseous at the taste of any fat, sinew, tendon, gristle, the smallest bone, or (god forbid!) skin or scales. Which is why I never order meat or fish in a restaurant. Ever. I learned the hard way.

Heck, I even used to eat raw hamburger with just a little salt, although I wouldn't do that here in Belize.
Strangely enough, I love and will eat seafood, like shrimp and lobster, as long as done well and it's completely deveined and "de-shelled." And I will eat conch if it's chopped up small and mixed in other things, (like ceviche or fritters). And I will even eat some kinds of sushi! But when I do eat meat or seafood, if it's not prepared absolutely near-perfect, I'm done. Sadly, I've gradually found myself becoming an unintentional, "almost" vegetarian the last few years.
So what does that leave me to eat, or what am I eating if I'm not eating processed junk? Well, mostly more veggies, such as broccoli, cauliflower, brussel sprouts, tomatoes, avocados, onions, cucumbers, and lots of lettuce salads. For my fats, I've been using real butter, olive and coconut oil, tossing in the black olives wherever I can, and adding a little ranch dressing or real mayo occasionally.

I also tend to lack in the protein department since I won't eat much meat, so I've been eating a lot of hard boiled egg whites. (Yolks are a definite "won't" so the dogs get those!) I've also been eating nuts, cheddar & mozzarella cheese, beans I cook myself, bacon with tomato in "lettuce wraps," and I've been making boneless, skinless chicken breasts in different ways.

And here's the REAL deal, my friends. As of today, even though I haven't felt well enough to exercise much, I've lost FOUR pounds! Amazing.
But I gotta be honest. Given the chance, I'd still eat a Big Mac and an extra large fries, or a foot-long BMT at Subway in a heartbeat. Or some rare and juicy, steroid-laden, antibiotic-filled (but tastes-oh-so good!) Iowa ground beef on a big poppy-seed bun, slathered in dill pickles, cheese, ketchup and mustard. It's what my body still craves, even two years removed. It's a good thing we don't have any of that here in Placencia, because I love that shit. But not eating crap, and cutting out anything that isn't whole or natural, is what is finally allowing me some progress.
So even though I say it grudgingly, thank you, Belize, for not having fast food.

Surely I can't be the only one whose food phobias make it hard to eat "clean" and healthy. Or am I?
And if you think this was weirdly fun, just wait until the next post, which is going to be even better! I'm going to share my list of my Do's and my Don'ts! See you soon!
I once knew a guy who would eat corn on the cob, but not canned corn?? Go figure.
ReplyDeleteAnd even tho you are a wacko (said with love), I think everyone has some food phobias. Mine are my steak must be rare or I will send it back; my food either needs to be hot hot hot or cold cold cold; I hate mint and licorice, which means fennel and anise are out since they have a very licorice-y taste; and I really do not care for pears. Other than that, I pretty much love all food (unfortunately haha).
Congrats on the 4 lbs. Keep it going....
Funny the things that we like or dislike, isn't it? And somehow as an adult, I've always found a way to make up for the things I don't like, by eating lots of what I DO like!!!
Deletecongrats on your lost pounds! WTG!
ReplyDeleteThanks! I was a little excited after the scale not moving for a few weeks. Let's keep our fingers crossed that it continues!
DeleteI am very afraid that I found your four pounds all the way here in Utah. I won't send them back, but I'm going to give it the college try this week to make improvements each day. Today was ten times better than yesterday, so that's a start! CONGRATULATIONS. And thank you for not quitting. As I've been watching the scale climb slowly, I've reminded myself that "Dawn isn't quitting, so Denise isn't either!"
ReplyDeleteSo glad to be a part of keeping you going Shrink! I was having a problem with the pounds I'd lost continuing to find me, but I've gradually realized that if I keep moving, and doing different things, they can't seem to find me again, at least not as easily! Believe me, if I can do it, YOU certainly can!
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