Saturday morning I woke up well-rested and in a better mood, so I hopped on the scale, which hasn't moved much, and then decided to get my workout out of the way first thing. I wanted to switch things up with my exercise to prevent getting to bored, so I dug out my old P90X DVD collection and popped the cardio workout into the blu-ray. Fifteen minutes into the workout, I wanted to slit my wrists, but I slugged it out and finished 40 minutes of heart-pumping cardio. 
Doing the P90X workout made me remember why I stopped going to workout classes. I don't think I can explain how much I absolutely DESPISE someone chanting at me, "C'mon, keep going! Push harder! Go faster! Kick higher! Pump it! Just one more!" For some reason, I would rather slug the dude leading the class in the mouth--with both fists--than do just one more, or go faster or kick a little higher. But, determined to finish what I started, I gritted my teeth and kept going anyway. 
I'm not exactly sure why, but I just hate being pushed like that, and it just makes me want to do the exact opposite of what they're trying to get me to do. If it feels even the least little bit like a "drill instructor," it makes me shut down. Even though I know it is supposed to be positive encouragement, it does not motivate me at all. It's one of the (many) reasons I have given up on most group workout plans, cross training classes, or exercise dvds in the past.
On the other hand, I am motivated when I push MYSELF, or even when I work out with a couple friends, but being pushed by an instructor with fake enthusiasm to do more makes me crazy. I HATED my workout today, it truly sucked, but I am proud of myself for sticking it out, and I got in 40 minutes of good cardio! I'm already feeling places in my body that haven't been worked for a while starting to get sore. I think I'll call that a win, even if it hurts.
Then, I spent some time making a better plan for my eating habits. I know that one of the reasons I struggle with not being able to lose weight is that I don't eat frequently enough. I don't eat because I don't have anything that I like in the house that is also healthy. So I go without eating anything too long, and by the time I do finally eat something, I eat too much. Add to that my pickiness, the fact that I hate going to the store or the veggie stands, and I hate prepping food even more, and it becomes a vicious circle. But if I want to be successful long-term, I'm going to have to make doing all of that as much of a habit as exercise is becoming. 
So, my plan is to start taking one or two days a week to hit the veggie stands in search of food I like and will eat. I'm going to have to find out what days the "good" stuff comes to the village, and make those days my shopping days. Then, I'm going to try to make ahead and prep everything possible, so that when I need something, it's there in the fridge, almost ready, or requires little cooking. I am also going to try to force myself to eat small, healthy snacks every three hours or so to keep myself from being so hungry and then overeating by the time I do finally get something to eat. 
Another thing I am going to commit to one big bottle of plain, old, boring, bland water every day starting Monday. I drink a lot of plain, unsweetened iced tea, or other "flavored" waters. I HATE plain water, no matter how good it is for me, but I know I need to do it. And that is going to be one more thing I am going to report on every day starting Monday, and I am hoping you will keep me accountable to that as well. I expect you to be disappointed if I don't get at least one in me every day. It's only one litre, a mere 33.8 ounces. I can do that!Baby steps. Icky, sweaty, watery, baby steps on a long journey! But tomorrow is another new day, so I'll see you then!
Hey Dawn! Too bad you can't mute the video and still figure out the workout lol!
ReplyDeleteSo fresh veggies come to Placencia on Tuesday's and Friday's every week. There's basically three good ones to choose from (across from Wallen's, Purple Space Monkey, and the bus stop). I prefer Clive's by Wallen's.
On water, I get bored with it too, so try putting either some lime juice in there, which is a super great liver toxic cleanse, or sliced cucumbers, if you like those. It's quite refreshing. You can experiment with other fruits you do like as well. Good luck!
I know, right, Sharon?! It does have that option, and if I do it a few more times, I might be able to figure it out enough to slog through it without having to listen to that jackass! LOL For the water, I will have to do something, or I will definitely get bored with plain water. In years past, I used to drink crystal light and mio but I've tried to cut out anything with artificial sweeteners in it--and most things with real sugar. I prefer lemon in my water, but you know how hard it is to get a REAL lemon here in Placencia. I have even started to drink my coffee without sugar now - except for one cupful with a little sugar in it on Sundays…….then back to plain black. Makes me want to give up coffee too!
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